Note to a jerk that I really care(d) about

To you out there,

That was totally uncalled for, man....

Maybe I am just a tad sensitive today,
maybe it's me who's been in denial of the jerk that you can be,
maybe it's something else, I don't know....

But still, it was totally not cool, man...

The cut is deep enough after the past 12 years or so,
that you really didn't have to take another stab at it.

However crappy you were feeling,
Whatever bad day you were having,
I really didn't deserve it.

However, rest assured that I did get the message, loud and clear.
Rest assured that I am trying my best to move on.
I really am.

As always, I wish you all the happiness in this world.
And I pray and hope that this will be my last note to you,
that whatever you do, it will never get to me.

Please do take good care of yourself.

Cheers.

Pathetic

It's pathetic....
How a pop-up msn message indicating someone's online can lift up my mood.

Think I seriously need a DIY brain-washing machine...
Anyone got any idea where I can score one?

A note to self

Is it just me or does time really flies when you don't plan?

As in.... when you don't even have time to plan.

As in.... when you don't even have time to really breathe.



I have never felt like this before.

Like I'm going through an endless tunnel. And it's not even a blackhole-like tunnel.

At least a black hole is empty.


But I am not a quitter...(unless you want to count the number of times I have quit my jobs), and I don't plan to be one.

I'm trying very hard to hypnotize myself.

I'm going to have the thickest skin of all when I come out of this tunnel.


This is the best training camp for me. I have to come out of this a stronger and better person.

And only when I am one that I can leave.

(note: repeat to self 100 times :P)

go low carb now?

I supposed Dr Atkins' followers are ahead this time around...
With all the concerns about rising price of rice, ... I suppose this is the perfect time to cut down on carb?

^_^