Bad news: Think the haze is killing me. at only psi around 59, I already feel like I'm suffocating. It also comes with nausea and headache. I blame my trip to kiwiland for spoiling me with the damn fresh air.
Good news: The almighty machine says I actually lost fat and gained only muscle the past 2 weeks.
Bad news: I think there's something really wrong with machine.
Good news: I will be done with my last exam by Dec 4th!
Bad news: I have 2 group projects due in the next few days. And they're all major stuff :(
Good news: I think I've reached a point where I couldn't care less. I just want to be done with the whole thing.
Bad news: My wisdom tooth is giving me a hellish time right now.
Good news: I think I have adequately supplied myself with painkillers from back home.
So in conclusion.... everything's under control.
(yanking my hair out while typing this)
Monday, October 30, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Post-whirlwind
The past two weeks has been a whirlwind. I don't even know where to start.
I don't think I've ever felt this exhausted before.
After running around the Sydney airport to catch our connecting flight, after a serious delay in our first flight from Auckland, I made it back to this hazeland late Thursday night.
As much as I tried to catch up and cook up a decent presentation, the exhaustion and distraction was taking its toll, I think. So I failed. My Friday presentation was really bad.... I'm really disappointed in myself.
It's only a freaking 15% of your grade. Don't worry about it. You have tons of other things to worry about.
I try to convince myself.
Anyway, don't have much time to mope around. I must catch up on the other 2 group projects.
Now those are really major stuff if I really want to graduate this year.
I came home after a group meeting on Saturday feeling a bit giddy. Took one panadol extra and some diluted honey (hope that really works), and found myself totally out for .. 10 HOURS?
I haven't had that much sleep since....since......
I can't remember.
I don't think I've ever felt this exhausted before.
After running around the Sydney airport to catch our connecting flight, after a serious delay in our first flight from Auckland, I made it back to this hazeland late Thursday night.
As much as I tried to catch up and cook up a decent presentation, the exhaustion and distraction was taking its toll, I think. So I failed. My Friday presentation was really bad.... I'm really disappointed in myself.
It's only a freaking 15% of your grade. Don't worry about it. You have tons of other things to worry about.
I try to convince myself.
Anyway, don't have much time to mope around. I must catch up on the other 2 group projects.
Now those are really major stuff if I really want to graduate this year.
I came home after a group meeting on Saturday feeling a bit giddy. Took one panadol extra and some diluted honey (hope that really works), and found myself totally out for .. 10 HOURS?
I haven't had that much sleep since....since......
I can't remember.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
When you wake up one day and find that the butterflies-in-your-stomach is gone,
(No, it's got nothing to do with our digestive system....)
and you don't even know exactly when and where you lost it.
You just sat there and felt the butterflies slowly dissapear.
Nothing you could do coz it was just a feeling in your stomach. There was no butterfly to catch.
It is a bit sad, but as usual, who has time to mourn the departure of a feeling in one's stomach?
So you sit down, take a deep breath, pat yourself on the shoulder and stand back up again.
Life goes on ...
(No, it's got nothing to do with our digestive system....)
and you don't even know exactly when and where you lost it.
You just sat there and felt the butterflies slowly dissapear.
Nothing you could do coz it was just a feeling in your stomach. There was no butterfly to catch.
It is a bit sad, but as usual, who has time to mourn the departure of a feeling in one's stomach?
So you sit down, take a deep breath, pat yourself on the shoulder and stand back up again.
Life goes on ...
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Coincidence?
What an interesting coincidence involving these 4 figures....
Can't help but wonder if I should buy 4D..... but I don't know how it works and I sure the heck don't like the idea of queueing up in such a long line for it.
If only they had an online system......with tutorials.
Can't help but wonder if I should buy 4D..... but I don't know how it works and I sure the heck don't like the idea of queueing up in such a long line for it.
If only they had an online system......with tutorials.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Silly me...
Boy was I wrong or what....
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I wanted to deal with more "concrete" things than rows and rows of numbers,
only to find myself getting cross-eyed from staring at up to 22,000 rows of data at one point in time.
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I would be free from annoying crappy databases that sound all great in concept until you need them to work properly and respond promptly),
only to find myself stuck with another one with even more issues to deal with.... so much so that I have to hold my breath and keep my toes crossed while doing a single click on my mouse.
(For God's sake, can't everyone learn from google? Capacity! CAPACITY!For God's sake please make sure your server's adequate before you start charging thousand and thousands of dollars will ya? Silly me forgot that I was fighting for access with people from the other side of the world)
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I want to be closer to my family,
only to find myself drifting even further apart.
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I will be able to spend more time and attention on my dearest family,
only to find myself having neither the time nor the patience to pay enough attention to them.
Silly me didn't have a clue...
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I wanted to deal with more "concrete" things than rows and rows of numbers,
only to find myself getting cross-eyed from staring at up to 22,000 rows of data at one point in time.
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I would be free from annoying crappy databases that sound all great in concept until you need them to work properly and respond promptly),
only to find myself stuck with another one with even more issues to deal with.... so much so that I have to hold my breath and keep my toes crossed while doing a single click on my mouse.
(For God's sake, can't everyone learn from google? Capacity! CAPACITY!For God's sake please make sure your server's adequate before you start charging thousand and thousands of dollars will ya? Silly me forgot that I was fighting for access with people from the other side of the world)
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I want to be closer to my family,
only to find myself drifting even further apart.
Silly me left my previous job thinking that I will be able to spend more time and attention on my dearest family,
only to find myself having neither the time nor the patience to pay enough attention to them.
Silly me didn't have a clue...
Monday, October 09, 2006
What is it with doctors?
Somewhere along our usual late night rants on MSN, Gin-man started complaining about being surrounded by doctors.
He's the mutant, really...
Anyway,why is it that
doctors marry doctors then raise doctors who marry doctors and raise doctors who marry doctors and raise doctors who marry doctors and raise doctors who marry doctors and raise even MORE doctors?
I mean, I'm thinking at one point or another, these people are gonna end up related to each other, aren't they?
Where do you draw the line before it's considered an incestuous relationship then?
Well, but then again, maybe with the story of Adam & Eve.... I guess we're all on the same boat here....
Nevermind, let's not get started...
He's the mutant, really...
Anyway,why is it that
doctors marry doctors then raise doctors who marry doctors and raise doctors who marry doctors and raise doctors who marry doctors and raise doctors who marry doctors and raise even MORE doctors?
I mean, I'm thinking at one point or another, these people are gonna end up related to each other, aren't they?
Where do you draw the line before it's considered an incestuous relationship then?
Well, but then again, maybe with the story of Adam & Eve.... I guess we're all on the same boat here....
Nevermind, let's not get started...
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Breathe again....
It's been a rather quiet weekend.
The weather was actually quite nice this evening. Just when I thought I would never see the end of the horrible hazy days we've been stuck with the past few days, suddenly I woke up from my nap this afternoon to find that everything was clear. No sign of the nasty haze anywhere to be found.
I could even see people strolling by the reservoir , trying to make the best use of the nice weather while we still have it, I suppose. And tonight, I could clearly see all the lights from across the reservoir, including the blinking lights from the 3 towers.
What a nice feeling.... just to be able to open your windows and breathe normally.
Something that we tend to take for granted, I suppose.....
The weather was actually quite nice this evening. Just when I thought I would never see the end of the horrible hazy days we've been stuck with the past few days, suddenly I woke up from my nap this afternoon to find that everything was clear. No sign of the nasty haze anywhere to be found.
I could even see people strolling by the reservoir , trying to make the best use of the nice weather while we still have it, I suppose. And tonight, I could clearly see all the lights from across the reservoir, including the blinking lights from the 3 towers.
What a nice feeling.... just to be able to open your windows and breathe normally.
Something that we tend to take for granted, I suppose.....
Thursday, October 05, 2006
The sky is falling on my head...
I've been feeling claustrophobic the past few days.
At first I thought it was just my room. Then I went outside, and it wasn't any better.
It's the haze, I think.
I'm not sure why.... I've dealt with fog and haze before.
I told Mr. Bunny that I feel like the sky is falling on me.
I feel like I'm suffocating... or wait a minute.... I AM suffocating.
There's no need to open your windows unless you want to get a taste of the fresh haze. Occasionally, you can really smell it.
I'm just glad my niece is not here right now. I bet her allergies will give her a really hard time.
At first I thought it was just my room. Then I went outside, and it wasn't any better.
It's the haze, I think.
I'm not sure why.... I've dealt with fog and haze before.
I told Mr. Bunny that I feel like the sky is falling on me.
I feel like I'm suffocating... or wait a minute.... I AM suffocating.
There's no need to open your windows unless you want to get a taste of the fresh haze. Occasionally, you can really smell it.
I'm just glad my niece is not here right now. I bet her allergies will give her a really hard time.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Monday, October 02, 2006
Sunday, October 01, 2006
My latest crush
I don't understant a lot about US politics. I just know that I'm not crazy about their current president AT ALL. I was a huge Clinton (the Mr) fan years back before the whole Lewinsky scandal. I kinda' respect Clinton (the Mrs) since she just seems like she could kick ass, though I've heard some negative opinions about her. I mean I'm sure nobody's perfect but who cares, I think she would make one heck of a leader, and I would really like to see her as the first female president of USA, so Clinton can be.... the first mister? I dunno....
(Now do you see what a fun and interesting time it would be to have her hold that position? I personally think if France's Segolene Royal wins the election, US would be so passe if they don't have Hillary up the next round. The devil wears Prada will then have to be based in Paris rather than NYC.)
Anyway, I started to like Gore since that day he showed his sense of humour by guest-starring in SNL. I like people who have the ability to occasionally not take themselves too seriously and maybe make fun of themselves once in a while. Simply because I've found that people of this type of personality are usually not as uptight and arrogant as others might be.
Now, I think I'm really close to having a crush on Gore.
All because of this short footage I caught on TV of this documentary
An Inconvenient Truth of Al Gore's crusade to save the world.
Why?
One. The movie, or maybe I should say just the short footage of it scared the shit out of me. So much so that I felt like buying a submarine or a house up in the mountains (not anywhere near any volcanoes though .... now if only I could afford it). Well, ok... so maybe this is not the first time the thought has crossed my mind. Some other Hollywood productions have did it to me before, but this is when my second reason comes in to the picture.
Two. I really find it inspirational to see how some people just don't bury themselves under any failure they have to face along their ways. There was one footage of Gore introducing himself,"Hi. I'm Al Gore. I used to be the next president of the USA". Going back to what I said about people with a sense of humour, I love that intro. So what if he didn't make it as the president of the U.S.A.......?? Big deal!!!He's moved on to do a more important mission:
To save the world!
Gosh, I think I really have a crush on him now.
^_^
(Now do you see what a fun and interesting time it would be to have her hold that position? I personally think if France's Segolene Royal wins the election, US would be so passe if they don't have Hillary up the next round. The devil wears Prada will then have to be based in Paris rather than NYC.)
Anyway, I started to like Gore since that day he showed his sense of humour by guest-starring in SNL. I like people who have the ability to occasionally not take themselves too seriously and maybe make fun of themselves once in a while. Simply because I've found that people of this type of personality are usually not as uptight and arrogant as others might be.
Now, I think I'm really close to having a crush on Gore.
All because of this short footage I caught on TV of this documentary
An Inconvenient Truth of Al Gore's crusade to save the world.
Why?
One. The movie, or maybe I should say just the short footage of it scared the shit out of me. So much so that I felt like buying a submarine or a house up in the mountains (not anywhere near any volcanoes though .... now if only I could afford it). Well, ok... so maybe this is not the first time the thought has crossed my mind. Some other Hollywood productions have did it to me before, but this is when my second reason comes in to the picture.
Two. I really find it inspirational to see how some people just don't bury themselves under any failure they have to face along their ways. There was one footage of Gore introducing himself,"Hi. I'm Al Gore. I used to be the next president of the USA". Going back to what I said about people with a sense of humour, I love that intro. So what if he didn't make it as the president of the U.S.A.......?? Big deal!!!He's moved on to do a more important mission:
To save the world!
Gosh, I think I really have a crush on him now.
^_^
Saturday, September 30, 2006
I'm a bit sad that the (ex)Japanese PM Koizumi had to leave.
I'm not familiar with any of his policies, or anything like that.
Honestly haven't been doing a good job in keeping up with international news.
I just somehow feel that he's a fairly decent guy.
Maybe it's the funky hairdo.
Yea... come to think of it, I think it's the funky hairdo. I'm still not sure whether that's natural or permed.
It's either that or the repeated footage of him ballroom-dancing with Richard Gere. YUP! I think that's what did it to me.
I'm not familiar with any of his policies, or anything like that.
Honestly haven't been doing a good job in keeping up with international news.
I just somehow feel that he's a fairly decent guy.
Maybe it's the funky hairdo.
Yea... come to think of it, I think it's the funky hairdo. I'm still not sure whether that's natural or permed.
It's either that or the repeated footage of him ballroom-dancing with Richard Gere. YUP! I think that's what did it to me.
Happy butterflies
I had a little "chat" session with one of my best friends, Bule, last night.
For some reasons, she seems to think I have the ability to decipher dreams, as she has this habit of asking me to do it for her, and this has been going on forever.
Anyway, we ended up talking about dreams.
Not just any dreams, but those that gave you this particular happy butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling. Those happy dreams that really make you feel reluctant to wake up to the harsh reality.
It's been a while, I must say....
For some reasons, she seems to think I have the ability to decipher dreams, as she has this habit of asking me to do it for her, and this has been going on forever.
Anyway, we ended up talking about dreams.
Not just any dreams, but those that gave you this particular happy butterflies-in-your-stomach feeling. Those happy dreams that really make you feel reluctant to wake up to the harsh reality.
It's been a while, I must say....
Friday, September 29, 2006
Unbreak my heart
I spoke to one of my YA-YA sisters on Tuesday.
It's been a while since we last had our catch-up session.
I was in a "mixed" mood but leaning towards a rather good mood. Unfortunately, she was on the opposite extreme, trying to bury herself in work to temporarily forget about her problem, it seems.
It really broke my heart to hear her story.
It's crazy what the heart can make you do despite what the mind tells you.
Sometimes I find it amazing the number of heart-breaking stories I have heard from people around me. So much so that at one point I really suspected that I brought bad "qi" to my friends. A friend even once suggested that I could probably write a book compiling all these drama, or maybe even work for a korean production house.
Up to this point, I think I've kinda' decided that my bad "qi" can't be that powerful as to have an impact on so many people. Therefore, my final conclusion is that the problem lies with people. These humans.... tsk..tsk..tsk...
(Oops.... I guess I've kinda' overlooked the fact that I'm one of them too :P)
It's been a while since we last had our catch-up session.
I was in a "mixed" mood but leaning towards a rather good mood. Unfortunately, she was on the opposite extreme, trying to bury herself in work to temporarily forget about her problem, it seems.
It really broke my heart to hear her story.
It's crazy what the heart can make you do despite what the mind tells you.
Sometimes I find it amazing the number of heart-breaking stories I have heard from people around me. So much so that at one point I really suspected that I brought bad "qi" to my friends. A friend even once suggested that I could probably write a book compiling all these drama, or maybe even work for a korean production house.
Up to this point, I think I've kinda' decided that my bad "qi" can't be that powerful as to have an impact on so many people. Therefore, my final conclusion is that the problem lies with people. These humans.... tsk..tsk..tsk...
(Oops.... I guess I've kinda' overlooked the fact that I'm one of them too :P)
Thursday, September 28, 2006
I framed myself
Yesterday, my trainer said that he didn't realize that I kinda have "small bones", i.e. small-framed.
"You've gotta be kidding me...," I said, " I don't get associated with the word small ... EVER."
He said that was based on his observation on my wrist size.
Well,... I thought then that it was acceptable given that one tend to experience some kind of optical illusion when comparing a large item to another humongously larger item.
Just out of curiosity, I checked online, and guess what....
I'm a MEDIUM-framed!
Hey, I'll take anything other than LARGE (and any combination involving this word), anytime anyday...
"You've gotta be kidding me...," I said, " I don't get associated with the word small ... EVER."
He said that was based on his observation on my wrist size.
Well,... I thought then that it was acceptable given that one tend to experience some kind of optical illusion when comparing a large item to another humongously larger item.
Just out of curiosity, I checked online, and guess what....
I'm a MEDIUM-framed!
Hey, I'll take anything other than LARGE (and any combination involving this word), anytime anyday...
When you think too much....
I'm listening to Jay Chou's new album, and I'm actually loving it.
Some of the songs are really quite nice. I really like 千里之外 despite my aunt's comment that the older singer (Fei Yu Qing) is a way better singer than Jay Chou. 听妈妈的话, which I think is supposed to be some kind of conversation to Jay's younger self (based on my limited knowledge of mandarin )is also a really nice song to listen to. I also like 红模仿 simply coz I think some elements added to the song reflect the guy's sense of humour. Out of the 3 music videos I've seen for this album, the one with a cute Chinese boy vampire and the spoof of the Ring's Sadako was the one I like the best.
Sometimes I think the world is just so not fair....
While people like Jay Chou and 方文山 are just drowning in their talents,
while my classmates who are new moms lose weight as easy as they breathe,
while some are lucky enough to be doing their dream jobs,
while others make money as they open their eyes in the morning, ....
Better not get started, I guess....
I mean, I know for a fact that everyone has his or her own set of problems, as what I usually advise any of my friends who's feeling down and starting to look at others with a dash of jealousy.
My mom also told me something that my grandma used to tell her:
人比人，气死人
Well, this is what happens when you think too much, I suppose.
Something that I somehow ended up discussing with a friend the other day.
So, better stop fretting and pull yourself together, girl!
Every day is a bonus, so ......... THANKS, GOD!
Some of the songs are really quite nice. I really like 千里之外 despite my aunt's comment that the older singer (Fei Yu Qing) is a way better singer than Jay Chou. 听妈妈的话, which I think is supposed to be some kind of conversation to Jay's younger self (based on my limited knowledge of mandarin )is also a really nice song to listen to. I also like 红模仿 simply coz I think some elements added to the song reflect the guy's sense of humour. Out of the 3 music videos I've seen for this album, the one with a cute Chinese boy vampire and the spoof of the Ring's Sadako was the one I like the best.
Sometimes I think the world is just so not fair....
While people like Jay Chou and 方文山 are just drowning in their talents,
while my classmates who are new moms lose weight as easy as they breathe,
while some are lucky enough to be doing their dream jobs,
while others make money as they open their eyes in the morning, ....
Better not get started, I guess....
I mean, I know for a fact that everyone has his or her own set of problems, as what I usually advise any of my friends who's feeling down and starting to look at others with a dash of jealousy.
My mom also told me something that my grandma used to tell her:
人比人，气死人
Well, this is what happens when you think too much, I suppose.
Something that I somehow ended up discussing with a friend the other day.
So, better stop fretting and pull yourself together, girl!
Every day is a bonus, so ......... THANKS, GOD!
Monday, September 25, 2006
I love fast people
I love small offices. I love efficient, and most importantly friendly, staff at a particular embassy in town.
Less than half an hour to get approval? God Bless them!
(Can't believe how I spent such a longer time (weeks, actually) to straighten things out with ppl back home)
All governments should learn from this particular office and get rid of those typically nasty,lengthy and unnecessary procedures.
Less than half an hour to get approval? God Bless them!
(Can't believe how I spent such a longer time (weeks, actually) to straighten things out with ppl back home)
All governments should learn from this particular office and get rid of those typically nasty,lengthy and unnecessary procedures.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Poker vs. Cucumber
Sometimes I really wish I could be more composed.
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't get fired up the way I do when it gets to something I really care about.
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't get over-excited the way I do when it gets to something I really like.
Sometimes I wish I were cool as a cucumber.
Sometimes I wish I were a poker champion, with the poker face, poker voice and all.
My roomie tried to convince me that I'd be just fine without a poker face.
I must say, I think a poker face and voice would come in really handy though.
Some kind of protective shield..... for me and for the people around me (e.g. my current team mates).
Well, anyway I've decided to forget about poker face and poker voice.
I have a new item for my (extremely long) new year's resolution list :
TO BE COOL AS A CUCUMBER
Somehow, it never crossed my mind before to list it in my previous new year's resolutions.
I'm listening to this Madeline Peyroux CD that I just got on my way home from my group meeting. For some reason, the songs somehow just send me back to my second apartment in Chicago.
It was a teeny weeny studio on the third floor of the south wing of a vintage building. There were 2 large windows with a crappy view of the parking lot and the alley behind the church next to the building. I saw my first snow flakes through those windows. I kept track of this particular tree's changing colours my first fall there. My very first experience of cooking for my friends was there. So was my very first experience of almost killing myself (and probably others, too) and causing a fire in the whole building (on a separate occasion). I had my first (and hopefully the last) visit from the cops following a complaint from some grumpy old lady neighbour, when my friends and I had too much of a good time when I had some of them over for dinner.
Oh, now I remember why the CD did this to me.
I think my ex-boss's hubby was playing her songs when my ex-boss had a farewell party for me at her home.
It just brings back memories of good times in the past.
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't get fired up the way I do when it gets to something I really care about.
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't get over-excited the way I do when it gets to something I really like.
Sometimes I wish I were cool as a cucumber.
Sometimes I wish I were a poker champion, with the poker face, poker voice and all.
My roomie tried to convince me that I'd be just fine without a poker face.
I must say, I think a poker face and voice would come in really handy though.
Some kind of protective shield..... for me and for the people around me (e.g. my current team mates).
Well, anyway I've decided to forget about poker face and poker voice.
I have a new item for my (extremely long) new year's resolution list :
TO BE COOL AS A CUCUMBER
Somehow, it never crossed my mind before to list it in my previous new year's resolutions.
I'm listening to this Madeline Peyroux CD that I just got on my way home from my group meeting. For some reason, the songs somehow just send me back to my second apartment in Chicago.
It was a teeny weeny studio on the third floor of the south wing of a vintage building. There were 2 large windows with a crappy view of the parking lot and the alley behind the church next to the building. I saw my first snow flakes through those windows. I kept track of this particular tree's changing colours my first fall there. My very first experience of cooking for my friends was there. So was my very first experience of almost killing myself (and probably others, too) and causing a fire in the whole building (on a separate occasion). I had my first (and hopefully the last) visit from the cops following a complaint from some grumpy old lady neighbour, when my friends and I had too much of a good time when I had some of them over for dinner.
Oh, now I remember why the CD did this to me.
I think my ex-boss's hubby was playing her songs when my ex-boss had a farewell party for me at her home.
It just brings back memories of good times in the past.
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